This is it!

So I have been binging pretty much whenever and with whatever. Everything is tight and I've just felt blah lately. I've been struggling with migraines 1 finally went to the Dr and we'll see what that will bring.

I made the commitment to lose weight over the next 3 months so Im looking forward to this journey. Some scary things along the way that I've noticed include my addiction to sugar, my emotional eating, and more.

Tuesday begins my new journey!

I am a work in progress!

I have stalled this week because I was sick! The day I am on is also very tough, slowing down while eating is a lesson that I have to work on! I am getting excited about having meals ready for breakfast and lunch ahead of time in mason jars! They should be easier to clean and they look pretty!

Today's successes-day 6

I have sat down to eat today. I am proud for eating salad and grapes for lunch. I chose water over soda too!!! I am proud for going to the pool today and getting exercise there when possible with the 3 kiddos. 

It was also nice to get on the scale this morning and see new number 266...my original start weight was 278 which is my heaviest ever...then I lost quickly but gained some and now the scale is going in the right direction! I have good days like today and bad days where I don't give a hoot about anything and eat everything in sight. I've noticed the pattern that when my depression kicks into high gear I have bad days. Because I see this I'm trying to make sure to read my response card more on those days.

I just read up on day 6...I am to slow down when eating. I loved the idea of changing up my environment to remind me to slow down. My daughter made me a beautiful centerpiece so I will be moving it with me wherever I eat. Tonight I'm giving myself credit for sitting down as a family for dinner and making this a priority. We have really bad habits of eating with the tv on and eating on our bed. I drank more water today than I have lately and I thought more consciously about what was going in my mouth! Oh ya, I also read my response card twice today. I've noticed that when I'm on the right track I look forward to reading it but when I get off track I want to avoid it like the plague!

Tomorrow I will read my response card twice, sit down to eat, eat slowly, and give myself credit!

Credit-day 5

So far today I took a bite of banana but then realized I was standing so I waited to eat it until I sat down.

My meal plan went down the tubes but I am staying strong.

I'm realizing that soda is a huge weakness and addiction right now for me, chocolate as well.

Day 4

Give myself credit

This is one of those psychology things that I preach all day long but have such a hard time putting into practice. However, from here forward I will be taking more care to give myself credit each and every victory...starting right now!

In the past I have been successful when I plan my meals and record what I eat. So I will start doing that right now. It's not going to be perfect but I will be consistent. So from this point forward I will be recapping my food choices for the day and writing my plan for the next day. I will be also recapping my successes and giving myself credit.

Recap of food:

1 whole bagel with butter

Water

Grilled chicken nachos

Chips and salsa

Sweet tea

2 grape mints

2 bags frozen grapes

Red wine

Plan for Thursday:

Oatmeal with raisins and banana

Salad with tomatoes, carrots, burger

Grapes, 

Ham, Mac-n-cheese, potatoes, green beans

Day 3

Day 3

sit down to eat, savor every bite

 I will sit down to each and every bite! It is an important part of my life to enjoy food and truly be thankful to god!

Day 2

Day 2

Choose 2 diets-a primary and a backup

Forks over Knives-primary

Low Carb/Atkins-secondary

This was hard because I really want to follow the Forks over Knives diet but I'm not sure I can live without cheese and meat but I think if I follow this diet and add in cheese and meat in moderation then perhaps I can be successful. I love what it stands for and the research behind it! For my backup I choose a low carb diet. The 2 diets couldn't be more different!